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I Don't Care 4 Reality
02:46
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I don't care for reality so i go into my brain and escape when things get to real or uncomfortable, I hide in my other world.
I don't care for reality and that's how it's always been and when things get to hairy or too scary, I go in to my imagination.
Tell me if it's normal that a trigger makes me want to pop a pill or a jigger or something bitter to alter my perception of the world.
Tell me if it's normal to run screamin from your shadow, and everybody else's too.
I tend to avoid reality so I sit here watching TV with a tub of oreo icecream and then I'm angry the next day at me.
I'm afraid of reality and the things I gotta do to make it better for me so I go into my brain-temporarily insane-and I dream about the things I'm gonna do tomorrow, in a couple of months, by the time I'm 39, I'll be owning my own and life'll be just fine
by tomorrow in a few or in a week or two, in a couple of months, by the time I'm 49, I'll be owning my own and life'll be just fine
by tomorrow, in a few, or in a week or two, in a couple of months, by the time I'm 59 I'll be owning my own and life'll be just fine
by tomorrow, in a few or in a week or two, in a couple of months by the time I'm 69 I'll be owning my own and life'll be just fine.
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2. |
Drunken Dragon
03:23
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The Dragon is climbing up the stairs
The ice in her drink are the bells
that clink me awake from my sleep
I start to shake inside
heart beat getting faster
quick I gotta win the oscar
for pretending to be fast asleep
She's a drunken dragon
with her cigarette
lookin for a fight
lookin to blow fire
The dragon is now in my room
standing smoking staring swaying
making her drunken decisions
at last she turns and goes
into the next room
my sister, confused, says the wrong thing
oh, now the dragon will catch her moon
She's a drunken dragon
screaming at the girl
for speaking out of turn
I hear my sister burn,
And apologize to cope in the moment
and calm the beast of unreason
and I close my ears, and I lie on my side
and I curl up tight not to hear the fight
She's a drunken dragon
with her cigarette
looking for a fight
looking to blow fire
She's a drunken dragon
screaming at the girl
for speaking out of turn
My heart burns
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3. |
Devadatta
02:50
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Devadatta in the dungeon
waiting patiently for air
Devadatta's on the sidelines
Devadatta's always there
if you look inside your heart you'll see her
lurking in the shadows
If you look inside your mind you'll find her
trying to slip through the cracks
to the ego
Devadatta on the pulpit
spinning tales that sound serene
Devadatta's getting closer
I will transform her into my queen
I will fight you, Devadatta,
with the middle way
Bringing out the best in me
and the worst in you will
fade to grey.
She is a master of illusions
a devil in holy robes
the more you point the finger outward
the more she sears into your soul
Devadatta, don't you dare
you don't scare me at all...
Not. At. All.
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4. |
Too Warm Too Soon
03:18
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And the trees are fooled
And the birds are here
And the people gather in the sun
And the winter stars
are burning in the sky
in my mind I worry for July
For it's too warm, too soon
for February
Not a little but very warm
for February
The crocuses are up
The tulips have their buds
The daffodils have already bloomed
and it's too soon
Yes, it's too warm, too soon
for February
Not a little but very warm
for February
Don't you think?
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5. |
Julia
03:14
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Where are you, Julia
I'm searching high and low
Where are you, Julia
are you running from yourself?
Head in the clouds
sneakers in the quick sand
trying to get out of this life
as fast as your can
I understand
Where are you, Julia?
What are you doing today
Trying to run away
or maybe recreate
something in the past
something that feels far away and vast
something that was...but will last
Well, I'm just like you,
I run and I hide, you see
When I'm caught up in my own
effed up version of me
The thing is, the more I run
the slower I seem to go
and the more I wait
the faster the time flows
Where does the time go?
Where are you, my friend
Where did you go?
You won't answer your phone
when I knock on your door
you're not home.
Are you running
like I am?
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6. |
And The World Goes On
03:23
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You see a caricature of me
It's one from way back when
and maybe I do the same thing to you
and it's just not true
Maybe we can't go back in time
but maybe we can start right where we are
and find
a new beginning
You see a crazy mixed up flake
and think I'm being different just for different's sake
and in kind, I see a woman who
is trapped by her small inflexible mind
So you don't feel heard
and I don't feel seen
we used to be like two cubs
playing in the tundra, on the rug.
And The World Goes On.
Do you feel marginalized
cause I feel demonized
into 'the other'
And The World Goes On
You see someone who's not me
a version of a person that I used to be
The mind is funny I find
keeping all our loved ones stuck in time
Maybe we can't go way back when
but maybe we can start right where we are
and begin again
And The World Goes On
We pulled each other apart
and made us who we are today
had I known then
what I know now
I would've done things
a different way
And The World Goes On
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7. |
Out of Control
02:38
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Jagged river out of control
curving into those places
I don't want to go
Endless water, with an edge
seeping in my psyche
and over the ledge
And I'm falling,
falling down
into a foreign land I don't know
and I'm out of control
There's a cold, dark ocean miles below
and I'm moving with those giants
I'm gliding along
Got my belly up my back to the sand
falling into a foreign land I don't know
and I'm out of control
and I've no place to go
and I am suddenly calm
and I am suddenly sane
And I'm falling
falling down
into a foreign land I don't know
and I'm out of control
And I'm suddenly, absolutely, confidently, unusually,
deliciously
Out of Control
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8. |
Most of the Time
02:07
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Most of the time I feel fine,
lucid and free - except in the morning -
when my feet hit the ground
and I stumble around
to get a drink of water and pee
Most of the time I don't feel as old as I am...
in maturity
and most of the time there are others wiser than me
to catch my fall
Most of the time I can trust the moment now,
and not worry about the future
or the past
and most of the time that lasts (yeah, most of the time)
Most of the time I've stopped the banter in my head
and I can go to bed
and most of the time I can see everything's relative
to a degree
All of the time I feel lucky
for the freedom to be me
Finally, all of the time
I feel lucky to be me.
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